I hope this update finds you well. I truly am sorry for not writing as much as I should, but college has been crazy busy! (I know, excuses, right?)
Anyway, as cliché as it sounds, just as this spring is a fresh start for nature, I am hoping it will be the same for me. (That was a reeally painful comparison, but you catch my drift.)I have had an amazing year. I really have. I have learned SO much about myself, about friendships/relationships, about my faith, about school and growing up, and I have had so much fun doing all of this! I have had some amazing opportunities this year and I have made some friends that I hope to stay close with forever. I have grown and learned so much and I have loved it all.
But I have honestly been through some crap this year.
That sounds gross, sorry.
There really is no other way to say it. It's just been tough. I don't talk about everything that happens all of the time so most people probably wouldn't even realize that this year (aside from being a freshman in college) has been one of the hardest yet.
Now, I'm not saying this to draw pity. I promise this post has a purpose greater than my own issues.As I have been silently struggling (as so many of us do), the things that have helped me are kind people. Just being there for someone makes a world of difference.
It amazes me how some people can literally talk about themselves for hours, and can never find it necessary to ask me how I'm doing. Or how someone can be so quick to label, judge, and ignore another person because they are "inferior". Since when did we become so fixated on ourselves?
I'm not innocent. I have totally done all of those things, more times than I'd like to admit.I have been so caught up in my own stuff that I have neglected friendships and forgotten to look out for my friends and family. I have been too quick to judge, I have picked out the weaknesses in others.
We've all done these things. It's so easy to get caught up in our own stuff and forget about others.
But at the end of the day, helping others and looking out for others is really what it's all about. It's unfortunate that it took me feeling forgotten to change my actions so I don't accidentally make one of my friends feel that way. I urge you to look at your own actions, and make sure that you are really being there for your loved ones and friends. And if you need support, lean on them for that base.
Sorry for the semi-emo/kinda dark/kinda preachy post, this is just something I needed to put out there.